Today was going well, felt ok-ish, ate really healthilly and then I needed to go to the local shop for something and as soon as I walked through the shop door, Mr Willpower went AWOL again! Started buying loads of crap I didnt need, or particularly want for that matter, to shove down my throat.
Have just troffed ravioli on toast, smothered in cheese, a huge family sized box of chicken dippers, 4 bags of crisps, a kitkat chunky and a bottle of full fat coke.
It hasnt made me feel any better at all. I dont know why I ever think it will but I just HAVE to do it once the idea's there.
Now I literally feel sick without needing to induce it, and more than anything I feel ashamed and so, so unbelievably tired and fed-up of all this.
Make it stop!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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your not a loser. REally your not babe. I know how frustrated you feel, and it really does suck...but stay strong girl, and you WILL come out the other side.
ReplyDeleteOOOh you have hang gliding and USA travel booked, thats exciting!Focus on the positve things and tell ED to fuck off!
hope your ok
take lots of care xxx
I like the idea of telling the ED to fuck off! I should do that a lot more than I do!
ReplyDeleteHope you are doing ok babe xxxxxxxx