Friday, 5 February 2010

Low, low, low, low


I feel like I should write something today, just because Im feeling so low. Due to money worries last week I really was at rock bottom and was making myself sick loads, a few times a day some days which I havent done for a while. Im not as bad this week, still biging and purging but ever so slightly more positive. Tonight though Im feelig sorry for myself as Im in on my own on a Friday with nothing to do, apart from of course show an indian takeaway down my neck and then vomit. Now Im moping about drinking and feeling sorry for myself. Wish I could snap out of it.
This stupid dark side of me that tells me Im a fat cow and that Im not good enough is looming over me today and wont bugger off! GO AWAY! YOU ARENT WELCOME HERE!

3 comments:

  1. you deserve reovery, live love and laugh.
    /i am sending you light and serenity from NZ. take care of your soul and yourself. i feel your pain through your words and i can relate. kia kaha, be strong

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  2. aw sam you can do this girl, i know you can.dont give up!

    thinking of you
    take lots of care
    Vic xxx

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  3. Hi Lou, thanks for your lovely words. Will have a peek at your blog :)

    Hey Vic, hope your doing ok. Take care xxxxx

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